1.1.10 - 1.1.11

Give yourself a gift today. Choose one self-defeating habit and permanently replace it with a self-empowering one.

 Happy New Year!

What a year it was! J

January….

> Troubled breathing after the countdown at CentralWorld 1.1.10. Rushed to nearby Police General Hospital. >> Prognosis: It must have been something I have eaten or the poor quality of air that midnight that made BemBem and Clang worried to death. It was definitely not a good sign for the year ahead..I thought. 

>Then I had Sushi, my first boyfriend and yes… he is Japanese.

February…

> I lost my Ipod 32GB inside CentralWorld Cinema.

>It was also the start of sacrificing not eating at McDonalds which until now I am very proud of.

>Broke up with Sushi then I met Jaspal. We started dating….

>After 5 years staying here in Bangkok , decided to change abode in Silom Area and met a friendly uber fantabulous neighbor. J

March…

>The start of the Red Shirt demonstrations which resulted to a standstill at Bangkok Commercial District. I remember being petrified since I forgot my passport inside my locker at TrueFitness again in CentralWorld.

> Seek refuge to Ladprao thanks to Binibini for keeping me safe and sound.

> Jaspal and I got committed.

April…

>Travelled by land to Siem Reap in Cambodia and it was one greatest moment meeting Loven, Faith and Don.

May…

>The end of the Red Shirt Demonstration but the start of the Emergency Decree.

June…

>The start of the rocky relationship with Jaspal.

>Met the Playful Chef that brings my sexual life into havoc.

July…

>Settled the issues with Jaspal.

>Fall inlove to Playful Chef while having a relationship with Jaspal.

August…

>My emotional breakdown….I cried.

September…

>Start believing that Playful Chef was not the right guy. He was indeed my first LOVE. L

October…

>Playful Chef surprised me with a birthday cake, my first ever birthday cake. Then I start hoping that he will love me…. yes AGAIN! (Sheer stupidity)

November…

>Stop communicating to Playful Chef…for my peace of mind.
>Acquired Alexandria…my precious treasure. J

December…

>Officially broke and stop communicating to Jaspal.

>Emergency Decree lifted.

>Wonderful and blasting moment at Koh Samed.

>Won GOLD..literally and figuratively.

2010 has established myself as Mr. Handyman (thanks to Playful chef)…Mr. NiceGuy (thanks to Jaspal) but above all the labels … I am a positive free spirited guy who has embraced LOVE …shared HAPPINESS and of course surpassed the tribulations.

2011...I love! It will definitely be a great year ahead because this is MY YEAR! :) 

Someone Like You

*Hiding behind excuses simply will not not bring any joy or sense of fulfillment."

"Lyrics from Adelle's Someone Like You"

I heard that your settled down.

That you found a girl and your married now.

I heard that your dreams came true.

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?

It ain't like you to hold back or hide from the lie

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,

That for me, it isn't over.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

You'd know how the time flies.

Only yesterday was the time of our lives.

We were born and raised in a summery haze.

Bound by the surprise of our glory days.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.

I'd hoped you'd see my face & that you'd be reminded,

That for me, it isn't over yet.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead".

Nothing compares, no worries or cares.

Regret's and mistakes they're memories made.

Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you.

I wish nothing but the best for you too.

Don't forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead"

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

The Rundown

"Successful people don't complain about the problems... they allow to remain as part of their lives"

December, the end of the year that follows a new frontier. It has been a tumultuous year for relationships, career, friends and family aside from the news that North Korea is bracing for a possible attack to the “Soul of Asia”. Relationships blossomed but have always ended with a sour note. I stop having delusions that someday..somehow I’ll have the right one or should I say destined to be with someone. Apparently, I really don’t believe in destiny and if you say I haven’t done my homework..well I’ve had enough upheavals that I’ve cried to much and even came to a point that I beg for to a guy just to love me. I’m just tired having three guys…that emotional wilderness trapped in me all this time.     You will never really learn any lesson from it. Just accept the fact that it happens; it will happen and will end. It’s like the current economic turmoil that everyone’s experiencing right now. Nobody is safe. It’s a cycle.

Relationships. Muji was my first love but it was Somtum Nua that I felt true love.. then in between was Greyhound, the type of love that always care. Ultimate FEAR..will it last? But then, I have that FAITH to nurture it and hoped that it would be for good at least if not for keeps. I FAILED. The only difference between fear and faith is in the kind of outcome you expect to experience (TY Ralph).

Career.  At 32, you begin to think what is FULFILLMENT, SECURITY, LIFE. The saturation point has come but really what lacks in me is a sprinkle of initiative, drop of bravery and a slice of will. It was only a piece of GOSSIP that really awakened all the awakenings. I am taking ACTIONS. The magnitude of your success and fulfillment are in direct proportion to how far ahead you consider the consequences of your actions (TY Ralph).

Friends and Family. Finally, after six years, I’ve already booked a ticket to spend a short but sweet memorable time with my family. I had an emerging year of connections with friends. At some point, I discovered myself piece by piece in knowing such wonderful people with great talents and insights. There is no end to the love you can give. There is no limit to the joy you can share.

2011 Year of the White Metal Rabit. The year will be an incredible joyful closeness year. The moment you get started, the task becomes infinitely more achievable. 

Karimlan

 

With what a deep devotedness of woe
I wept thy absence - o'er and o'er again
Thinking of thee, still thee, till thought grew pain,
And memory, like a drop that, night and day,
Falls cold and ceaseless, wore my heart away!
~Thomas Moore

 

 

 

Tila

 

Tila inulan ang puso ko
Nang nalamig ang 'yong pagsuyo
O bakit nagbago ang 'yong pagtingin
Parang malamig na panahon

At nang ikaw ay kinausap ko
Habang ang ulan ay bumubuhos
Nakita ko sayong mga mata
Na gaganda din ang panahon

Chorus
Tila hihina rin ang ulan
Tila lilipas din ang bagyo
Kahit madilim ang kalawakan may nagtatagon
Sinag sa ulap

Tila inulan ang puso ko
Nang parang naglaho ang pagibig mo
O bakit ka kaya nagbago
Sinlamig ng panahon

Chorus
Tila hihina rin ang ulan
Tila lilipas din ang bagyo
Liliwanag din ang kalangitan
At ang araw ay sisikat nang muli

Bridge
Ang karimlan ay haharapin
Matatanaw ko rin
Bughaw na langit
Umaasang ang pagibig mo ay magbabalik
Pawiin mo ang lungkot sa puso ko
Kahit madilim ang kalawakan
May nagtatagong sinag sa ulap

Chorus
Tila hihina rin ang ulan
Tila lilipas din ang bagyo
Liliwanag din ang kalangitan
At ang araw ay sisikat nang muli

 

 

(Sung by Lani Misalucha)

Wednesday Bloom

“Buddha said when we were born, we were lotus under water. Then, as we grow approaching the surface, we’re learning. As we surfaced, we finally and truly understand the meaning of happiness…Lotus is a sacred flower …it gives you a peace of mind” 

Playful Chef In Bangkok

I’m not religious to begin with, though I respect such insights. But whatever the LOTUS entails, for me it’s a flower that gives radiance. You appreciate the form it shows and how it blooms.

At the end of the day, how many people have we shared our laughter, argued or simply smiled at? We don’t even know and possibly would not even dare to care.

Same as LOTUS, we float and let others smile at us, argued how we grow and even perceived things around us and just laughed at our shared moments.

LIFE and LOTUS were such both magical wonders we have in this WORLD.

Strong and Invisible

“Small decisions may hold significant consequences.”

Paulo Coelho

As we aspire to be more human, our attitude towards ourselves and peers will play a pivotal role. Positive people learn how to handle life’s atrocities differently and use these opportunities to grow. We constantly working on self improvement, develop self-confidence, better self-esteem and greater internal motivation to be the best.

We explore on the pages of life, learn on the bookmarks and share our annotations.

Insights will always help us to be more positive and optimistic, motivated and goal oriented about our life and the world around us.

Realization always come when you feel lost, splurge in sheer pleasure of boredom or to the least challenged.

I AM.

Waka! Waka! Strong and Invisible!

SHINE!

“We never learn important things by being told. We have to find out for ourselves” Paulo Coelho 

Most of us are seeking a new leadership or creating a new system of thought. CHANGE! We hear people talking about their own way of adapting to changes that some even create a subliminal workbook/ guide. 

Before anything else, we need to examine the environment in which we are held. No system of any kind but pure creative intelligence essential to the understanding of the inconvenient truth. 

Love.

Politics.

World.

In the end...it is just and only be ME!